By BLACKCHICKWHITEACCENT (BCWA)
I'm sorry I haven't written in a while. I've been doing a lot of work on myself lately, and I'm seeing some positive results. The best feeling in the world is to be able stop the negative thoughts long enough to forget them. I also am in the process of writing a book! I am doing a biography about my 82 year old cousin, Will G. Phillips. He grew up during segregation, and in the Jim Crow South. He later became one of the first blacks to integrate IBM.
You have no idea what this means to me. I'm incredibly excited. But I still fight the negative thoughts. Thoughts like, "this book is gonna be self-published, and therefore it doesn't have the prestige of being chosen by a publisher." Or "I'm gonna get bored with it, and stop writing."
I could try to talk myself out of writing it. But here's the thing: Once I get focused on something, I've got a pit-bull grip on it. I cannot stop doing a project until it is completed. I am determined to see things thru, no matter how impossible it seems. I am always doing something. I can sew. I'm always discovering new things about how my computer and printer works. I like to make seasonal wreaths, and I'm always making fun things for my great-nieces. The only time I'm sitting still is when I'm reading or writing.
Writing is my passion. I love listening to music too, but I love to write. I loved writing papers in college, so I know this book will get done. So, for now, I'm putting the column on hold. I'm writing a real book, and I absolutely love it. That's what I mean about hope from the unexpected. I've wanted to write a book for years. I'm confident it will be a good read. It may never be New York Times bestseller good, but I'll make a little bit of money off it, even if it's just sales to his friends :)
I've worked in broadcast media. Radio was fun, and television was flattering, but writing has always been my first love. I'm getting a chance to flex my skills. I am filled with hope.
it's a "bye for now." But once I finish, I'll come back and tell you all about it. I'm certain that no matter how good or bad it sells, it will be empowering. I'm looking forward to the ride. Love yourself. I'll see you soon. BCWA